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Originally Posted by prefabsprout
(((Wandering Soul)))
Lots of people would want to be around someone like you!
Having experienced social awkwardness myself (which spiralled because of isolation, and fed into a big old whammo depression) I totally 'get' your description of your walk. 
It was something I really had to work on, because deep down I needed social contact if not friends, and I actually liked people (well many of them anyway!) just got overwhelmed in some social situations.
What I found easiest, and still do, was small groups or one to one conversations. There is just so much outside stimulation in a larger group situation for me (I can handle this better now but still prefer smaller groups), so many conversations/agendas/personalities - I just can't keep track of it all.
Going back to you WS, and feeling judged, I think there are many people out there who would understand this and like you for who you are. One of my closest friends is a person who has had similar SA, and it's because we 'get' each other as we do that we are such good friends - we both had to work at that. There are so many different kinds of people out there, there will be people who understand your struggles. |
Thank you very much. Your input is always highly appreciated.
Actually, yes, I prefer one to one conversations, but to find this one you need to mingle with larger groups. I tried meetup but didn't work. But this isn't my issue here. I know I said something like "who would want to be around me?", but I'm really getting used to be alone and and to loneliness. But why I still feel anxious even without talking to people? Just being around them makes me so anxious. I just wish I can enjoy a walk alone in a nice street or park without this overwhelmed feeling.
Thanks for the article, I will try to read it. But what happens is automatic, and I cannot control it or even realize it until I passed the "dangerous" situation and my mind becomes clear.