Hi Superheroine,

I'm sorry you're struggling so much
I'd say that the meaning for you, could be right there underneath the depression..........
Although I understand it may seem impossible to feel it right now , don't forget that this doesn't need to mean that there's no meaning, "just" that you're in a place where you can't feel it right now.
And I'd completely agree with a review of your support:
Maybe the therapy sessions aren't moving, moving too slow or moving too fast........or maybe it's another T you need..........consistent feelings like the one's you talk about shouldn't just be "brushed off" as "part of the process".............."part of the process" or not they need addressing seriously!!
And different meds can have different effects on different people, so if they aren't helping you, then there will be plenty out there you can try..........it might be a matter of the abilify not having time to "kick in" fully yet.............but feeling as you do, I'd say it was definitely time to "touch base" with your doctor or pdoc about the way you're still feeling. It matters, you matter

Alison