JustAFriend - I know exactly how you feel! I am saddened when I see other people enjoying life while I am on the sideline watching. I am so envious that they have some semblance of "normalcy" in their life. I used to do things (kayak, racquetball) and had hobbies, but lost all interest over the last 3 years. All I can do is hope that someday this veil of darkness will lift and I'll want to participate in this game of life...