Thank you very much. Your input is always highly appreciated.

Actually, yes, I prefer one to one conversations, but to find this one you need to mingle with larger groups. I tried meetup but didn't work. But this isn't my issue here. I know I said something like "who would want to be around me?", but I'm really getting used to be alone and and to loneliness. But why I still feel anxious even without talking to people? Just being around them makes me so anxious. I just wish I can enjoy a walk alone in a nice street or park without this overwhelmed feeling.

Thanks for the article, I will try to read it. But what happens is automatic, and I cannot control it or even realize it until I passed the "dangerous" situation and my mind becomes clear.