I hate this. I hate me. I hate my life. I really don't know what the point of anything is. My pdoc wants me to go on medical leave, but I'm going to quit this job soon. She asked me if I wanted to go to the hospital to rest... Who's gonna take care of my dog in the meantime? At least if I'm gone for good I can have my mom take her. I can't do that temporarily, because we live on opposite sides of the county. But she'd take her if I was gone. I know she would.

I can't stand this. I want to disappear.