Thanks. But I either have to try or it gets dangerous or have to try (or do rather) because just because (more or less delusional). It's continuous because of that second scale, you know: it's sensitive.

But I appreciate you saying that. And I do try to see it as a bit of a game just to continue.

I am pretty easily satisfied though. It's a problem. Negative symptoms. In many ways that's more relaxing than "pure" BP. But it is both useful and a big shame. And it's that together with mania that appears like trying too hard. It's not: I just do, it's (disorganised) schizomania. I don't choose any of this it chooses me.

Ah well, it just is and is fine.

If anyone is bothered by any of it though, please let me know.