Wiretwister, what an interesting point you make! If I may, I would like to add this in. Ok, without using the "r" word as to not be in the wrong forum or to offend anyone, I will work around it. I once heard a speach in which the speaker said that life was like being on a roller coaster, and that it was intentionally created to be that way. He went on to say that we are not truly living if we do not feel as though we are on a roller coaster.

I still to this day do not fully comprehend the moral in his speech. I definitely feel as though I am constantly on a roller coaster. However, people that I have known through the years who do not, have always seemed to be a lot more stable, rational, and quite honestly, much more successful than me. So, in my own mind, the roller coaster ride has not been worth it thus far, which oftenly leads me to wanting to get off of it.

Perhaps I just solved my problems. "If" I could be stable, rational, and successful all at the same time for an indefinite length of time, maybe I would no longer be sick. Then again, it is said that bp never fully goes away. I suppose I can still have a pipe dream every now and again, huh?