It's what maybe most clearly distinguishes schizophrenia from BP.

In walking a fine line between BP and SZ, I experience it, sometimes more, sometimes less. It's one of the reasons I often can't afford to "relax".

I believe it's what in some more mystical/religious texts is called a characteristic of the "half-wise": wise to the (almost) utmost extreme (due to a psychotic disorder), understanding how they don't choose their path in life, but, paradoxically, that determines their path, one where one "sits back and relaxes", where nothing one does makes any difference.

Is anyone familiar with the experience? Any ideas how to stay more fully wise, if it's a sign of wisdom at all and not just delusional.