Ever since my husband died I watch exclusively comedies. I can't take drama. I used to be a huge law and order svu fan and I Loved ER. But I couldn't watch either of those anymore. I never like overly violent movies. I only like scary movies if they're super cheesy like IT. I stopped watching scary movies a long time ago, even before my husband died. He would watch them late at night when I was trying to sleep and I would put in noise cancelling ear buds and drown it out with my comedy podcasts.

We read the book divergent in the class I co-teach. When we were done we watched the movie. I made it until the mother died and then I kind of flashed back to when I found my husband and had to leave. I refused to come watch the rest of the movie (my co teacher is a good friend so he understood). That just reiterated for me how I just can't watch that kind of stuff anymore.

I'm even uneasy about Seinfeld, the episode where Susan dies. I'm going to skip that episode and the following episode where they're at her grave and start a foundation for her.

I don't really think this has to do with mental illness though. It's just how I am.