I have done it twice since posting this. This morning was the worst one I've done in that area. I already had an appointment today with my obgyn for a pap, so she looked at it and just said it didn't look infected.

This weekend I had horrible, severe urges to cut off my parts of my genitals....won't say what. I got so triggered from my husband continuing to molest me in my sleep, and I thought that if I did that he could never touch me there again. I didn't do it though.