I know that if I do break it off I will eventually find someone else and fall in love. But I also believe that eventually several years later this same issue will come up. What if we had married a year or so ago when I was still "in love" with him? Isn't that the whole point? That marriage is work and don't give up just because it isn't all rainbows and butterflies? I think that my feelings for Scott might be more of a symptom than a cause of what's wrong, yet I can't get him off my mind. Is give anything to be able to fall back in love with my fiancé.
And sex for me has always been a way to seduce and prove my attractiveness and power to myself (even though I've only had a sexual relationship with two guys). I've always been called a tease and a flirt because I like to know I can make a guy want me but I never follow through. I think that's why I'm not interested in sex with my fiancé anymore because I know without a doubt he wants me. I don't think that could be fixed by leaving the relationship for another.