I might have had two kids instead of one if I didn't have bipolar disorder. I crashed so hard after my daughter was born, I almost didn't survive it. I can't go through that again. And managing two kids would be too hard when I'm unstable.

I probably would have also advanced my career further. I've always held back because I know the depressions will wipe out whatever I accomplish in the hypomanias. That's frustrating because sometimes I'm capable of so much, but I've mostly accepted it.