I'm dealing with apathy,which seems the natural fit for this forum. I was looking for moral support, going forward; my motivation is to seek control, and I was hoping you'd assist with that.

I just don't know where to go with that, other than to confront my family, so I'm seeking counselors and others that will help me do so, and beyond that, I don't know, but there I'm starting. I want them to respect me, even if they don't; if not, I just intend on moving on, setting boundaries, etc., but the fact is, my desires aren't clear; I've worked towards art and getting a job, but they have proven weak motivators; I may want them, but not enough to get up early, or turn things around.

On the other hand, picking fights seem to work, so I've focused on building on that.

I'm motivated to confront my family, so I need to plan for that, better. I've failed before alone, so I want help doing that, others validating my claim. I just don't want to be disrespected.

Basically, I'm seeking third-party framing. Hm--I feel a little happier, just thinking of it.