I think your T is being honest in this relationship. Nothing is forever. Except our memories and the things you have learned from her or any loved one. Its good that you are able to voice your fears and shelve some tougher decisions a few months down the road .

My T is 68 and he many times has told me he would never just drop me, I had this fear for the first couple years , unfounded but it was there..

But the reality is a person can be here today and gone tomorrow. I know that he is going to retire one day , he has no current plans to.. but who knows. I really was upset about this last year so we discussed it many times.. I have learned so much from him about myself and how strong I really am.. and the best thing I can do when we are no longer seeing each other for whatever reason is to honor the work we did and continue using the skills that he helped me learn that has been a turning point in my life.

There will never be another " Richard " for me. Sure there are many of T's can and will be helpful to me in the future.

I dont often respond to your threads but I have followed along .. Rainbow you have grown so much in so many ways. don't lose sight of all the gains you have made and how much stronger you are because of the hard work you have put into your time with your T. She certainly has helped you ... but you did the work.. the greatest T's in the world cant make someone better themselves... Pat yourself on the back