I've been in therapy for about 4 years now with the same therapist. I've an into issues before with lateness and texting in the beginning of my session. My trauma is quite extensive and my life has only gotten worse since I started seeing her due to my ex leaving. Now, I'm suffering in numerous ways including financially which just creates even more chaos. im at a point now where I'm trying to figure out how beneficial this really is. I have an attachment issue which is what has been stopping me from leaving. I think if she was a friend she would be more beneficial in my life perhaps than as a T and that's not feasible. Obviously, she wouldn't see me if my insurance didn't pay her and I didn't give her the copay. Now because I will be terminated under my ex's insurance that all changes as well. There could be a cap as to the number of sessions and it's definitely pricier on my end plus I'm not sure if I can even afford insurance. Then she texts in the beginning of my session and she's very aware of her phone during session. She doesn't answer my emails. She forgets where we left off and then blames me for not bringing things up because it's my session. When I have confronted her she gets defensive and somehow it's my fault and perhaps I don't like her "style". We spend sessions with her asking me why I'm there and we haven't been addressing anything that I find substantial. She seems like she can't wait for time to end in order for her to get on her phone which she immediately does once I get up. She's also forgetting facts and events which I thought was odd. So I cancelled the one appointment due to my frustrations and she never questioned it. Then later on I decided to take a therapy break of which at this point I might not go back. I sent her an email telling her so and she hasn't responded to that either. She has favorites for sure and so there are people that I know of that see her twice a week and have her undivided attention. Perhaps it's all me but at this point I don't want to take a chance, invest in therapy, and start all over with new T that might do the same or be worse. I'm just lost.