"do any of you have any experience or advice for me to tell these people...
can i just tell them that i am not normal and please dont treat me like a text book...?"

You could let the dr's read this post but they may not get thru all of it. That might help. You would need to sent it to them before your session to enable them to read it prior to your session. I think your post is very telling. When I first read it I realized how intelligent you are but you don't embrace it. The questions you have about yourself and your treatment shows an understanding and insight into what you feel your need to stabilize yourself. I was thinking as I read your post that if you are dissociating you are not having much internal communication. Something very important to relieving some of the confusion in your mind is internal communication.
I tried for years to find a reason for my thoughts, forgetfulness, mood changes and always knowing that I had more than one me inside. When I started reading about the aspects of a diagnosis of Dissociation I could see me. It helped me feel sane. Working with my t who specializes in Dissociation I have been able to sort out my thoughts and acknowledge that this is indeed what I have developed in order to keep us safe over the years. You mentioned that you thought you might dissociate. Mention that to your therapist. Ask your therapist if they are familiar with the diagnosis. Ask the therapist if together you can look into this as a possibility for how you function in the world. If your therapist is willing, you need to keep in mind that it takes time and meds to work through the new understanding of yourself. I hope you do well this June 2. I think you are intelligent and proactive in trying to gain balance in your mind and life. You can do this with patients and communication within yourself and with your therapist. I wish you well.