How can I explain...

It is more than just watching others have fun. It is about my being, my soul, my existence. One way to describe it would be a faithful church goer being suddenly prevented from doing so. A collector of old cars being told they are not allowed to look at them. An avid reader being disallowed from touching a book. It is about lifestyle not about having fun. I belong in the forest and on the waters. Looking out at city and knowing all that surrounds it is flat prairie for hours and hours and hours drive all around is like a prison cell to me.