I am a gay adult (young 20s) and I’ve been out to other people about my sexuality for about 3 years now, having relationships with people my own age or older for the same time.

As I’ve gotten older I’ve become more aware of how unchanging my attraction towards teenaged boys has been. It's that look and the way they are that they have that I find draws my eyes. It started when I was 10 but didn’t bother me since I was basically one of them for ten years, who cared? It’s beginning to unsettle me since I find that I am now rarely drawn to people my own age, unless if they are ‘cute’ or ‘fresh’ faced. I started watching gay porn around the same time as well, and the majority of the guys you’d consider twinks (look it up). I wonder whether it might just be me being overly picky for nice looking guys.

Has anyone else had experience with this? Could my porn use over those years affected my developing brain, or was my preference already set beforehand?

I want to know if anyone else on the forums here shares the issue.

Meh

Note:
I don’t feel a need to have a relationship with a teenager, because lately I am dealing with other personal issues that limits my ability to hold a relationship anyway. Also there’s obviously the issue of most of them not being ready for emotional demands of relationships with adults, hence why it’s not socially acceptable. Don’t worry about me on that front, also understand that the age of consent is 16 here.