Just to let everyone know up front I have no plans to kill myself so this is not about making a threat. However, I am haunted by the thoughts of suicide almost all the time. I try to push them out of my head and have made a commintment to do nothing to harm myelf but I still can't get the thoughts to stop. It seems like suicide draws me to it like it is something that I will give into one of these days. Sometimes I feel like the only want to get rid of the pain is to go to a place where I will never feel anything again. These thoughts scare me sometimes because I can almost see myself doing it one of these days but I don't want to hurt my husband who is so kind and gentle and loving. It would be a horrible thing to do to him and that is what stops me from doing anything. But how can I get the thoughts to stop. Anyone with any experiene in this area can you please tell me how to stop the thoughts and help me learn how to get through this time. I see my therapist next week and plan to talk to him about the thoughts but that is a ways away yet. Help or feedback would be appreciated.