I'm the guy that holds on to a girl temporarily until she finds the guy she's actually into. Always being the middle guy who gets cut as soon as someone else comes along.
I stayed with my abusive exes long ago because I didn't want them to leave. Even when I had no more feelings and I let them berrate me and hit me because no one has treated me with respect so I don't believe anyone's word no matter how open and closed I choose to be.

Its never enough because they don't give me a reason to trust them. It's really petty things people leave from me.

I find it messed up every relationship or potential relationship I go into, my first immediate thought is how long will they take before they leave too. I don't get excited more fed up internally and quiet under my smiles and laughs.