Hey, 8th. I read the entire post and I think you suffered through so much from psychosis from your mental illness. What I think is most incredible is the fact you kept working hard, despite any stressful circumstance. You powered through the tough times and tried to keep a job. You are not alone, though, in your struggles. Especially the hospitalizations, severe anxiety, and paranoid social cognition. There are people who will relate. And I think you should see another physician so you can start off fresh - therefore no bias.

I do hope you find the forum useful while you stay anonymous as possible. This is a safe space where you can write down your thoughts and personal stories.

I am curious; what injection does the physician give you?

Edit: And Seesaw is right. Bullying from those you trusted can be traumatic.