I just wonder if I parts are trying to communicate with me. I havent' been paying any attention to them for awhile now, well because I have enough to deal with. I just think they are a huge hinderance. I think all of this is. I don't know I am just hurting so bad, no one even knows. No one irl here even knows how bad things actually are, I can feel it, I can feel complete chaos inside and I know it is just going to burst. But I can't deal with it right now, I just can't do it. Started having flashbacks the other day when I was with my boyfriend. I had to take a few days off from seeing my boyfriend so much, it's been really hard though. I think my parts are trying to get me back. When I was starting to have the flashbacks a few nights ago one of them started threatening me, but were they doing that to hurt me? or someone else internally? I don't know, I just don't know much of anything anymore, I am just so lost and confused and I am just so tired. Tired of having to live like this, I want to live a normal life. Why do I need to be som complicated? Please, Please I"m hurting so bad, I need everyone's support, encouragement, I just need a hug.

Jennifer