I finally put the last pieces of the puzzle I am an aromantic asexual and it frustrates me because no one probably knows or has heard of aromantics but now as I think of it it has always made sense. Why I have never felt satisfied in relationship instead I felt suffocated and now why my dream of having a best friend roomie that does everything for me but isnt romantic may make sense to me but not romantic people. I discribed it as a soulmate that is a friend that I love but not in the sexual or traditional love sense and now I understand why that makes sense to me but not to romantic people. I am not a romantic I am AROMANTIC and it all makes sense now why I feel happy seeing couples kiss but I have always thought of romantic relationships as "too much for me" or I feel it is a waste of effort that leads nowhere. It all makes I am part of the small minority that has no desire for romantic relationships and it feels freeing because to be honest I am tired of random creeps that haven't met me say they love me because I was naked. You love the nakedness not me get it through your head why do those creeps always end up fooling themselves? I swear to god they end up believing that they love the person not the body so they can feel less guilty about being creeps anyway I am going to make a Youtube video for aromantics since I make a part of the population because I feel there isn't enough chat on it. See ya guys and stay safe