Hello SelfHarm: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral... from the Skeezyks! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

The Skeezyks has not had the kind of problem with which you are struggling. So I cannot speak to it directly. However, in my own life, I have struggled with various self-harming compulsions. Pretty-much all of them have dropped away at this point. I'm an older person & perhaps this is the reason. But I have also found, when my circumstances changed such that I could no longer engage in a particular form of self-harm, it seemed as though it went by the wayside. In a sense, it seemed as though the compulsion was tied to the particular set of circumstances under which I practiced it. When the circumstances changed so did the need to pursue the compulsion.

So my only thought would be... if you divest yourself of the means to watch these videos (your computer?) perhaps you may find that your compulsion will lessen. Perhaps put your computer, or whatever it is you watch these videos on, into the hands of a family member or friend who can help to control your usage of the equipment. You wouldn't need to tell them why you're doing this. Just say it's because you're spending too much time using the equipment in general & need help to cut back.

I imagine this is something like being addicted to alcohol or drugs. There are, of course, alcohol & drug treatment programs & support groups. I don't know if there is such a thing for persons who are addicted to porn. (If there isn't, there probably should be.) I was reading an article in our local newspaper this morning about internet addiction & programs that are being started to treat individuals who have this problem. I know these kinds of addictions can be devilishly difficult to overcome. I have the impression that, sometimes, it is simply a matter of coming to terms with the fact that one has the addiction & then figuring out ways to practice it safely.