is real. picture those movies and pictures that stimulate you sexually as daggers and bullets damaging the real meaning and purpose of sex. in reality, you're addicted to a false love. one that you love and leave with the click of a mouse. this totally destroys the idea of sex to both parties. i do believe that we are "all" corruptable to the highest extent of evil based on choices we make. but i also think our bodies "fight" against us for only so long before it gives in to your mental desires. be as kind to your body and brain as you possibly can. after all, you didnt create it and it carries so much more weight when a soul is burdened to where gravity actually seems stronger. your mind doest deserve the con job visual images and paid actors are selling it about sex.

i remember watching Ted Bundy's final interiew before his execution on, "Focus on The Family." i remember how angry it made people that he would dare blame pornography for these atrocities. folks, the guy seemed sincere that his roots to violent sex started with viewing pornography at a young age, because of its progression over time. the scariest part was thayt we had a christian man condemning Bundy's defense, calling it an excuse, which it was.

the deeper point is that the hatred people had for that man was so strong that since his excuse was porn that it executed bundy. pornography acquitted; eerily, covertly accepted just a tad more, as if we werent on the move towards sexual anarchy anyway.

the thing you are suffering with pays bills for some, but rips the little dignity we have as human beings. Pray, keep praying. if that doesnt work have someone pray with you. in our quest of freedom we really have became enslaved. i wish you the best with this pride and self-worth sucking leach.