I didn't sleep last night. The bugs were biting me to much.

I told T you guys were the only reason I went yesterday. I see the nurse today hopefully the abilify will knock me down.

My husband watched me take my meds last night and argued with me because he thought I just took the welbutrin. I took both.

I signed Miguel up for dual enrollment last night. I want him to go online until he's older but he has labs he needs to attend on campus. So he'll go to the small campus. I'm worried he'll be discriminated against because of his age. He'll be 14 but in the 10th grade. He could have done just AP courses but there year long instead of half year long and he's a bad test taker. I asked my husband and son to make sure it wasn't a manic thing. They say no it's not so I did it. Miguel's stoked he'll be the youngest on campus. He told me I was manic yesterday.

It's 6 am and I have to do laundry.

I may go lay down for a little bit longer. My husband's the sane one now but he's sleeping. I'll talk and talk and talk on here.

My therapist wants me to journal but I don't know what to say. I'm trying to keep it short to only tell the important parts but what are those.

I want a bacon egg and cheese corsant but I don't think we have the money. I'm going to check anyway. I want to walk to WAWA but it's to far. I wish I knew how to drive but this is exactly why I don't know. Should I tell her all this?

I'll write more later thanks for reading anyone that does I appreciate it. I might throw out my extra sleeping medicine that I'm not suppose to have. That way my husband can't make me take it. I'm not tired anyway why should I sleep?

Is it important to tell T I don't drive because of mania? She thinks if need be I could live on my own. Do you guys think I could? The ones who have known me for years.

Maybe I just need space. My husband said I'd be miserable at my parents house but I don't know where else to go. It's not like we have the money for me to stay somewhere maybe a homeless shelter but who wants to stay there?