He said: I think we should hang up and talk when we cool down. Ok?

I said yes because I felt attacked and I didn't want to say thing when I am angry. Felt wright.

I say that because it happened one time a few months ago, I let him be because I was angry. After 5 days I wrote that this is not normal and I don't want to take a radical decision. He then texted that he is sorry, he is ashamed and know that he hurt me, he didn't want it, that it was five years since his sister died and he was overwhelmed. And at the end of tel discussions, being 600km away from each other, he asked me if I can forgive him, I said yes. After a while, re discussing it, he told me about his way of escaping reality and ignoring a problem and if it will happen again, I should call him and insist and help him get out of it.

I love him and I think that we all have wounds and bad things from the past, and that together with your other one, you can over come them. I still think it's just like a few months ago, bad time, lots of problems, traumatic events from the past and that he needs me to keep believing in him. He had a rough childhood also, he was never appreciated and always everybody told him that he is not good enough, so he moved away since he had his first job. He told me that is why he divorced, because he was tired of his ex to keep telling him that he is not good enough and never tries enough. Maybe that's how he took my joke also.

It's not that I don't want to be treated like a porcelain doll and that I think that low of myself, it's like I still kind of hope it's about his past, his frustrations. And with the love I feel, I can help us fix each other.

Is it stupid, I am blind, I am wrong? I don't know. I have faith and patience in accepting him further, but I also feel betrayed, not loved, not important enough to speak with. I can't give up yet. I feel lots of things.