It isn't fair. But that's why you deserve better. It isn't something against you or that you were a bad person, or that he is, it just...is.

I still am dealing with it, actually. I mean, I have mainly dealt with not talking to the guy anymore. Not having closure is really hard, and it would have been nice to have been able to talk like rational adults and just say, "Okay, this doesn't work, let's move on," but that takes two mature people. He couldn't do that, and if I'm honest, I don't know if I would have been a good candidate for that conversation. So things just hit a wall with our communication until he stopped communicating effectively, and I had to decide to let him. What I feel now is that he is probably grieving in his own way, that I'm not the only one hurt, and that's that.

Right now, my struggle is more with my own existence and loneliness. I don't really want to bore with that.