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It happens the exact same thing to me, except that instead of surfing the internet I listen to music. I spend hours and hours listening to music at night, even if I am so sleepy I can barely hold myself in the chair. I just refuse to sleep. So I mostly end up going to bed around three o’clock, with is pretty horrible considering I have to get up at seven. So I sleep about five hours every day, I am tired all the time and in a foul mood due to the lack of sleep but I simply cannot bring myself to go to bed.
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If you're going to try, go all the way. Otherwise, don't even start. This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives and maybe even your mind. It could mean not eating for three or four days. It could mean freezing on a park bench. It could mean jail. It could mean derision. It could mean mockery--isolation. Isolation is the gift. All the others are a test of your endurance, of how much you really want to do it. And, you'll do it, despite rejection and the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you're going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that. You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire. You will ride life straight to perfect laughter. It's the only good fight there is.
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