I don't know if its the depression, anxiety, PTSD or all of them combined but I'm drowning, guys. I don't talk to anyone anymore and when I try the words just don't form and the subject's dropped. I don't go anywhere but work. I don't enjoy anything. If I'm not comfortable numb from alcohol, I'm miserable. I don't know what to do.

I don't have a single idea how to fix all of this. I'm not getting better, I haven't been for a long time. Just getting worse and worse with little moments of being at a standstill every now and then.

I'm so damn scared.

I need some help.