I have a daughter. She's four. She was an oh **** pregnancy (actually, when I found out I was pregnant I screamed ****!!!!!! and threw the pregnancy test. lol!).

Anyway, never wanted kids, but things happen.

She's a joy. She gave me a huge hug tonight, wrapped her arms around my neck, and said I love you always. Awe! She's a lot of fun.

Parenting is hard. All the stress and worrying. I was stable before having her. I was in the hospital twice last year with meltdowns (technically two sui attempts, but the first one was more complicated).

I miss the time to myself I used to have. I used to have a life too. Sort of miss that.

Um. Guess that's all I have to say about that.

I do think I'm a fantastic mom though and she's obviously happy and loves me, so I can't be doing a too **** job. lol!