I am losing all strength to keep fighting this. It's like a force is tugging to pull me back to the hole that I've been trying to escape from for so long. I made very little progress, but at least I've been able to tread water and stay afloat. But, it seems it was all in vain, because that black hole sure has a wide opening. I feel if I slip into it again, I will never make it out again alive, as I have neither the time nor energy to escape once again. I feel the end is calling.



The words to the song below define me perfectly.

Life, it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters, no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free
Things not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can't be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he's gone

No one but me can save myself, but it's too late
Now I can't think, think why I should even try
Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now I will just say goodbye