Well after 2 weeks of pure hellish pain I was able to get my Lidocaine infusion and it brought my pain down to a 7 .. still sucks but I wasn't actively looking for ways to end my ride on this Merry Go Round.

My husband wound up in the hospital on Friday the 13 no less.. He came home and was literally out of his mind and wasnt making sense and broke down sobbing and look terrified but wasnt able to tell me what was going on. .. Yes drove him in a mad dash to the ER .. Stroke was a huge concern. CT came back clear but he still didnt know his name or birthday or my name. I was absolutely terrified. So the Lidocaine I got the previous day was totally gone .. Anyway .. long story short he the next day when he was able to make a bit of sense he said he had helped a friend fix some windows and the caulking has gotten jammed and the tube kind exploded and he inhaled alot and it burned like hell and it wound up all over his hands and arms...

So had to track down the actual stuff so the hospital was able to call poisen control and find out what if anything could help . No antidote , it just had to work out of his system but he needed to be monitored very closely to make sure his kidneys and liver were still okay.

So.... Moral of the story . Chemical poisoning is nothing to brush off ... Took him a week to really get over it and not have difficulty remembering things .

A 5.99 tube of caulking is now a bill of over 22,000.00 .. Did I mention he has no insurance? so yeah .. there is that . and since the state of Tennessee did not expand medicaid when Obamacare hit my husband isn't able to qualify for any help ... Also now the only income we have is my disability so there was/is no way to afford any plan that was offered.

My husband filed for disability last month because he has severe neuropathy in both feet and legs , very severe .. some days he can barely walk , he has emphemza and had broken his back twice. he had Bilateral Shoulder surgery in 2010 from injuries he had working for a large company and he has permanent impairment in both shoulders and they had no job that he could perform.. of course most people that suffer a workers comp injury soon after find themselves losing there job.

He lost 3 jobs in the past 12 months due to his inability to perform his duties and since no insurance the medication we can only afford was neurontin and that caused him such problems thinking and walking , he was drugged tested 4 times in one month as they really thought he was on drugs.

Well that is a long word vomit .. Sorry I tried to make this shorter but I think my Bipolar brain was hacked into pieces and skipping like a old warped record.

Gentle hugs to all