feeling myself slipping lately. afraid of what i will do if i come out of my depression comatose so trying to stay there as it feels safer. summer and all its obligatory things. seeing family. taking trips. and now the inlaws want a family portrait so we will have to drive three hours to the city with all the beachgoers. it all seems so ridiculous but i will focus on the happiness of my husband and even my father in law if it gets me through it. between that and trying to deal with visiting/visits from my parents and my head is spinning. ugh. just having a really rough time lately and i am doing my best to keep my head above water for my kids. we may not be out having a blast for the long weekend but at least home is peaceful and they are happy.