I have worked with nurses who were less competent than I--as experienced professionals--and I have no idea how they made it as long as they did in my department. I am tense all day if I get even a little bit behind, and there are some people I work with who are so effing slow, who sit and gab with their patients...how the eff do you have time??? I don't even have time to drink water or pee! I literally don't! I drink one 40oz bottle of water in a day, my bottle that I filled at home before work. I both don't have time to drink and don't have time to fill it back up.

Much of it is that I'm really hard on myself. I am a competent nurse, and, energy and competency-wise, well-suited to ER. But hard on myself or not, I don't enjoy nursing. I loved ER as a tech. And I love the environment, still. I just hate nursing.