Because I was rejecting any feelings of anger, I found all my emotions were damped. As I have allowed myself freer range of emotions I am finding that i am more reactive to things both negative and positive. I have found that for me cutting is a way to feel or sometimes to not feel. As we work towards healing we have to be able to accept ourselves and where we are in the process. Perhaps you are just not ready to be that happy yet?

Good job on posting instead of cutting.