PC,

Its hard to post after such a long time, you wonder just like if you hadn't saw someone in years if they remember you. Its probably silly to think that way its only been a month I am assuming. Alot has changed. This world is hard dear PC...I found that out....

My sessions in therapy have been hard...so ...so hard. I've opened up but the pain is physical. I told my therapist about my homosexual experience at a young age. The thing PC never knew...you all never knew...I've...Never told. It was at age 10 through 12. I prefer not to get in depth but the scar was of confusion. Along it brough an evolving mental state. Things like greed, lust, my greed, my lust upset me. I can't handle much anything anymore...I cry easy like watching a happy ending of a movie.

My experience was with my cousin. He and I....I know many of you will now think different of me now,..I can't determine if you will or won't. Butu I trust you Like T. She said I was strong and I'm not weird everyone has experiments. Now 17 I'm dating someone online a women.

This post isn't very good..I can't get out the words I want. I'ma try tho. I've started finding diffeent ttypes of music to listen too. More things in touch with me. I also find im not living in the now. I dont understand much of life. I get sad easy...............

I can't write anymore....bye...for now......