I think I get some of this. Only, I DO have a fulfilling relationship. Still, I am aware there should be more to my life than that and I yearn for it. My relationship isn't - and shouldn't - be the be all to end all. I want more. I am bored. I am restless. There was a time I led a thriving, eventful, and satsfying life. I wish I could have the means (finances are the biggest restriction) to regain and live some of that way. I feel that I am so often putting on a facade of pretending to be completely happy.