I don't get "pure" hypo/mania anymore. I either get dysphoric mania or depression. No ifs, ands, or buts.

I know how you feel... You feel cheated when you don't get hypo/mania, especially since you've only been getting depression.

I feel like I've been teased with my mixed episodes. It's like "yay hypomania....... and depression ". I get the surge of energy, racing thoughts, productivity, and the little need for sleep that comes with hypomania... but all those racing thoughts are negative. I also feel horribly depressed, worthless, guilty, and irritable. It sucks.