I have been struggling for 7 months first mania, and now depression. I am not seeing any light, I know that meds take time to work and finding the right strength also.

I feel miserable most of the time, and that I am whining and moaning constantly. I know I am depressed and it will pass (I hope so) but I am worn out now. I have followed the pdoc advise, take my meds on time, try to eat and sleep well. Sleeping a full night is a problem but I have started sleeping tablets again. I have had intrusive thoughts, negative thoughts etc.

Why is it so bloody difficult, I had a few days where I thought I had got through it. But now back to feeling miserable and depressed. I really want to start feeling like I am living again.

How does one deal with the ups and downs, sometimes all is going good then I get this sinking feeling in my stomach. And I am back down low all over again. There doesn't seem to be a trigger and its sucks.

Thanks

Annmaria