There are many secrets but mainly just a flawed individual who would poisen anyone who came close. Don't get me wrong not all of me thinks like this but those are the voices that are at the forefront when it comes to letting anyone close. I know where they come from and I know how they affect me in a destructive way and I know how to get rid of them but I can't do that alone. That is my catch 22. I need to let someone close to help me but that is what I need the help with. We will get there, just might take a while.