I'm not ruminating, I'm having flashbacks...and the events are not in order. Having perpT tell me he felt sorry for me like he feels sorry for street people...is bad...but then I remember the reason we were walking along Main Street when he said that was because, unbeknownst to me, he told his receptionist that I was *dangerous* so he was taking me for a walk...for *her* safety... The truth is, we were talking about why intimacy had stopped...and he didn't want his receptionist to hear that...

Those details of the second flashback make a big difference to *me* and are even more hurtful than just being compared to street people.

Don't the details matter? Ffs?!