they diagnosed me with somatization disorder... said to me that its when the psychological stuff becomes so much that it begins to manifest itself as real physical symptoms...

i feel alot of pain too.. but sometimes i cant feel anything... its a see-saw that seems to be attempting to drive one completely mad

i feel much shame because i feel like i may be exaggerating things too, but if i was exaggerating then i wouldn't be so debilitated and would be able to "in secret" do things... but my secret is that "in secret" i bleed and cant do anything, worse than when im around others...