This is more of a rant... And an education. Lol. If any of you are addicted to opiates then PLEASE just go through that withdrawal instead of a doc putting you on suboxone. Docs usually prescribe 2-3 sub strips a day (that's 8-16mgs). Ok, I was taking 2mg every other day. A tiny amount! But if I went four days without, I'd get withdrawal which, with subs, is like the worlds worse flu. You're crapping and puking, endless showers (I'd take up to three a day) just to wash away that cold sweat. And by the way, sub WD can last for over a month!
Now here I am... Four years later... Full blown addiction and no I was NEVER prescribed this drug. I admit I started using it recreationally. I would get a nice buzz but now? I don't feel ****! But I HAVE to take it to get away from that withdrawal. Meeting friends in shady places, you name it. This is the worst hell I've ever been through.
I kicked alcohol once with the help of a local hospital for a steady stream of benzos through an IV.
Well I'm sick of being a slave to this quite boring drug. Wtf?! I have tears in my eyes right now and I want to scream!!! So what do I do?! Suboxone is a fairly new drug and from what i DO know, there's nothing they can give for WD. So wtf do I do?! Should I go cold turkey? Just cry and sweat and **** it out?! I do have a script for seroquel and Xanax so if anything, I want a wait till I'm stocked up on those. But the WD is so bad I wake up every 15 min to wipe the sweat off me and get in a comfortable position. It's pure hell my friends!
So what SHOULD I do?! And before anyone mentions the herb "kratom", yes I've done my research and It does seem to help a lot. However I want the capsules and from the amount it takes, I don't really have that money to blow. Like, I'd need two bottles every week! But it's still a maybe. And also, my step kids are usually here Sunday through Tuesday. I don't want to be a puking, shitting mess in front of them. Honestly, I'm a baby. I don't know if I have it in me to do It cold turkey. But what should I do?!
And for those of you that quit with the help of subs, good for you since subs are made to be OD proof. Good for you. But I'm telling you now, unless you plan on having your script for the entire remainder of your whole life, you're in for a world of **** in the long run!
This isn't a post stating that I AM quitting...but I have an insanely desire to. I'm just scared as hell. I've been through the sickness before and I wouldn't wish it upon anyone! I'm just looking for your ideas of what I should do and if you don't know, then I'll take the support! Thank you!
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