Twirls,

I don't think we can tell the trauma until we can tell the trauma. Please don't beat yourself up about it. When we have been traumatized or abused it can take a great deal of trust before we can show that vulnerablity to someone to help us. I have struggled with the same and only recently shared with my T my 'big secret'. It kills me to have done it and yet I know that is is important to my healing to work on it or it would not have been so important to protect it. Protect myself from talking about it and showing it.

Please be gentle with yourself and show yourself kindness. This is difficult stuff and sometime it needs to be worked through a bit at a time or it can overwhelm us. That is my experience anyway.

I'm so sorry for your pain. And I'm so glad you shared it now so you can get busy on it.

Hugs,

Juli