Thread: HOCD issues
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Old May 27, 2016, 10:07 PM
MusicLover82 MusicLover82 is offline
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I've been having HOCD issues on and off lately. For those of you who don't know what it is, it is where you obsess about your sexuality. I'm a heterosexual married woman who sometimes worries that I might be bisexual (even though I don't think there would be anything wrong with being bisexual).

I find women attractive, sexy even. But I have no desire to have sex with them or have a threesome or anything like that. I have only had sexual experiences with men. About once a month, I have obsessive thoughts about different things and sometimes it is the fear that I am bisexual. It can be frightening, even though I KNOW logically and morally there would be nothing wrong with being bisexual IF I were.

I think part of the issue is that I fear my husband would be upset if I ended up being bisexual. Like he would be jealous of women I spend time with. I really don't think I'm bisexual, but I keep obsessing about it.
I think I'm actually handling them pretty well mostly. I try to ignore them and I don't compulsively talk to anyone about it (talking to people about my obsessions to try to get reassurance is my compulsion). I also reassure myself in my mind and try to distract myself by focusing on other people and how I can help them or brighten their day.

Anyone have experience with this and found a way to manage the HOCD obsessive thoughts?