I've been a total b**ch to my H all day, and I'm not sure why. He was working from home, plus a guy was here to clean out our air ducts, so that was kind of annoying. I work from home, so it was like constant distractions, and I have lots of trouble focusing as it is...I said that I felt like I was being irritating, and he said, "Because you are being irritating." Which, gee, thanks. I said I figured he'd want to hang out after DD went to bed, but wasn't feeling that social, and he said he wouldn't really want to hang out with me the way I am right now anyway... I mean, I have a cold and am not feeling well, but that's no excuse. PMS was last week. Maybe it's just stress?

Or maybe it's about some test results I got a few days ago that included something that's a marker for chronic Lyme disease (won't get to talk to doc about it till next week), and when I mentioned that to him, he said that it wasn't a real illness. I said that our friend had it, and he was like, "She had something, but it wasn't chronic Lyme." Thankfully, I saw my T the next day, and she says it is a legitimate illness and that she has a couple clients who have it. Granted, I'm not positive that's what's going on, but it would explain quite a few of my symptoms, including my total lack of energy and constant fatigue, plus some of the mental health stuff (well, some of that has been there since I was a kid, but more the severity of it now). But if he doesn't think it's something real...then, yeah, I don't know... (For the record, it's low levels of CD57/NK1 cells, which from what I've read online, is pretty distinctly a Lyme marker, though H said it could be mold, too, though I haven't found much online about that connection).

Anyway, thinking my crankiness toward him could be related to that maybe...hoping we can talk about it some in marriage counseling Tuesday...