On top of everything else, I'm feeing quite abandoned and alone. My T has been out of town for the last few weekends and just seems too busy to respond to my text or emails. My pdoc is out of town this weekend for the holiday. They're the only ones that know how ****** I'm feeling and I feel like the have no lifeline. I guess I should be used to this by now, I've been alone my entire life. And as usual, I'm probably overreacting. Why is everything so damn hard? I'm so tired of this fight. I don't want to feel anything anymore.