Today I have learnt a valuable lesson my issue was I wanted to do everything and I didn't respect my mother, one thing lead to another they wanted answers on how i became a camgirl who sees I didn't know how to say it without feeling judged and hated on and when I told mum she said I was immoral and disgusting for it. Without a better word for it I felt degraded, worthless and empty like if I am going to be made to feel so worthless. So I came to a compromise I quit for her also because the cops came because there was some verbal fights and my sis hit me but I didn't tell the police. I just was to numb to say anything, I kept on crying the police asked me if I wanted to harm myself because I looked upset I just cried. He told me if i needed to see the hospital I could. I just feel so upset and sad that I am wasting others time that I couldn't just disappear from exist that I had to exist. It is sad and I feel worthless for simply existing. I have decided to delete everything it doesn't matter what I want I have to respect my mothers wishes as I am living under her house that is all she asks. All in all I learnt how to respect others and not just think about myself and my needs and wants I am finally learning to met everyone half way.