Yes, today we are going to the cemetery with my family. It's going to be really hard as I haven't been there since his burial. I hate visiting cemeteries. In the 19 years since my dads been gone I think I've visited his grave maybe five times. It just doesn't comfort me. But my in laws are up from another state and wanted to visit so I said I'd go. It was tough explaining to my son where we were going. I wanted to make it clear that we aren't going to actually see daddy - that he's not actually there and he is still in heaven. He sort of gets it.

But afterward we are going out to lunch. It will be nice to spend some time with my in laws as they moved far away last year and I don't get to see them very often.

And later in the evening I am getting a new tattoo. It's a very important tattoo for me as it's a cover up of years of self harm scars. It's also a bit of a memorial for my husband. A hummingbird, which reminds me of him.

So I have plans today, and my brother and his fiancé will be with me all day.

I thank all of you for your kind words. You have all been like family to me as I've navigated the roller coaster of bipolar, and as I've navigated this tragedy in my life. I thank you all so much for your support.